Its hardly five hours after the premier event of our branch fest concluded “Chaddi Buddy!” and I cant believe am writing a serious post. The event promised a lot of laughs and did live upto its billing with most of the people enjoying their time. Atleast that’s what they told me…
With no net to while my time in FB, no messages in mobile all I can possibly do are muse something randomly. Unlike some of my usual posts where I touch upon something specific this post will make me type whats running through my mind right now. While it was refreshing to see so many people registering for the fact and the testimony to the fact being that we had to close registrations today even when people were pouring in to register themselves. Now when I sit and reminisce some events over the past 48 hours a deep shallowness descends over me. Its now that I feel life has to be lived alone. I really cant believe I have this thought just after I hosted an event which celebrates friendship.
While this post might hurt my friends I really do feel alone now. Sometimes seeing too much happiness around makes you pity yourself. Possibly this is a similar case. Maybe, I might wake up as the regular old Rahul. But tonight, there is a certain lump in heart..a certain sobering effect..something which makes me retreat to my shell…something which makes me think philosophy..something which makes me pity myself..And this isn’t the first time I have experienced this. And I still don’t know hot to overcome this….
Am I sad? No. Am I happy? No. What do I want to do? Nothing. What is troubling me? I don’t know..What do I want? I don’t know.
I am lonely…Waiting for sleep to give me company….
